Friday, March 25, 2011

Vis Major

My comp crashed. So no more posts for a while.


But I'd like to leave you with this link I came acrosshttp://bd71.blogspot.com/2008/06/family-secrets-state-secrets.html

Monday, March 21, 2011

Questions To Answer Part III of V


  1. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
A: Joyful simpleton. I should know, coz I've been the worried genius all my life, and it ain't so great...

  1. Why are you, you?
A: I guess I am me, because of the mountains of assiduously suppressed potential. Not a bit manages to leak out. Not if I can help it.

  1. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
A: Yes. But I could have had a few less dependency issues.

  1. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
A: Out of sight, out of mind. Neither matter that much.

  1. What are you most grateful for?
A: Knowing how to read.

  1. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
A: Loose all the old ones. I wouldn't mind that even w/o the alternative. It will get me over my inhibitions and psychosis.

  1. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
A: nope. Challenging is part of accepting, and making your own.

  1. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
A: Yeah. I've been rejected loads of times. I've lost my purse. I can probably do anything after this.

  1. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?
A: yeah. Precisely, very clearly. History almost repeats itself, but I think I've made all the preventive action that foreknowledge gives me. So, no, it does not matter today, but certainly mattered back then.

  1. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?
A: Going behind my dad's back, and managing to get Leo from the vet! Special, because 1. dogs 2. independence and initiative.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Questions To Answer Part II of V


  1. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?
A: Defend my friend. Been there, done that. I have no good sense AT ALL.

  1. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
A: Don't think too much, if you don't have to. And certainly never think so much that it maqkes you a fundamentalist.

  1. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
A: "Save" from mortal danger, duh. From the law, itself, I hope so…. Depends on the risk to me.

  1. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
A: So far, no. Is that a good thing??? Seen it the other way though.

  1. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
A: Think!

  1. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
A: Because I'm slightly conked in the head? Because I am also high up on the autism spectrum, claustrophobic in all but book shops, coz I'm the proverbial Tam-Bram…. The reasons are endless.

  1. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?
A: See above...

  1. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
A: Underestimating people.

  1. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
A: Dubai!!!! Coz it's a desert … I might settle for Rajasthan, too, though I've never been there.

  1. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
A: Yes I do push it more than once. The elevator doesn't come by faster, but I have something to do while I wait!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Questions To Answer

So, I came across this set of 50 questions to find the answers to. They are (supposedly) value-neutral, so allow you to determine for yourself what you are, without any bias from the questions themselves. Some are not quite so effective, while some - particularly the ones asking about memories - are pretty good. I'll post them in groups of 10, so you guys can read my answers...



Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer.
  1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
A: 32? I think I sometimes think of myself as having a mid-life which keeps crisis-ing...

  1. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
A: I prefer to never try, or try half-heartedly. But I want to change that answer.

  1. Do you do things you don’t like, and like things you don’t do? List.
A:  Yes.
I don't like, but do, the  following -
  • staring at my comp all day
  • going out immediately after college, to avoid work.
  •  procrastinate
  • Stare at my feet when in an argument
  • But junk food

I like, but don't do, the following -
  •  reading the newspaper.
  • Writing
  • Being spontaneous.
  • Getting High….not true, I did that yesterday!!!

  1. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
A: As of today, YES. Unfortunately.

  1. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
A: That people can hide and colour their true feelings in personal relationships.

  1. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
A: no idea. Philosophy???

  1. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
A: Doing what I believe in. I gambled away practicality and opportunity loooong back, though I wish I hadn't.

  1. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
A; Probably would never have had the brains to do anything different. So, no.

  1. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
A: I would LOVE to say very little. But actually, about 50 - 50. or even 60 - 40, it’s been all my mess. I wish I had been better informed, before making my decisions though. In terms of lost opportunity cost.

  1. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
A: Doing things right. Things must be perfect, with a certain inner synchronity, for me. That would be at the cost of everything else….even if, even I, don’t want things to be perfect.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

The dream of every IP lawyer....

I know this is probably just a bit mean of me, to post this up on the blog the minute I get it...


But every IP lawyer has heard of the famous trade-secret Coke formula, and its' up on SpicyIP anyway....


I am sooo going to try this when I can get my hands on all the ingredients!!!

http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/427/original-recipe/recipe

A Scientific Mind


So a previous post said something about the perfection / imperfection of science and social science. And this is quite apt, as I wonder – for the umpteenth time – if I made the wrong decision on that first day of school in 11th standard…when I went downstairs & changed my subjects…
I guess in science, your answers would have to come from inside you; from logic and deduction and experimentation. As Carl Jung says, in these fields you have to take a leap of mind, yourself be psychotic in order to understand human psychology.
In law, and economics, all your answers come from other people – if other people, “authorities”, don’t say it, then tough luck, you can’t be the first to say it; not until you are ancient (or like a certain type of person, J noojies-only joke!). And it says something about me, if I eventually end up in the kind of crappy fields I hate the most.
Perhaps, the saving grace is that it doesn’t have to be that way. Not always. Not forever. One of the many books I was reading over the holidays was “Joseph needham and the Secrets of China”, or I think that was the name. This fellow, needham, was the classic, ideal image of the Cambridge Don, plus that dash of over-liberalism which every genius must profess…he occupied the room presently belonging to Stephen Hawking, he published huge tomes on random subjects (chemistry-related, I think), had a photographic memory, as well as a wife and a mistress (who worked together!) among others!, he played the piano perfectly, he was the heart of revivng Moorish traditional dances in UK, he wrote phamplets and what-nots to support communism…
The kind of guy, in sum, who is an irrepressible know-it-all, extroverted, exhuberent, intellectual with whom you have a serious love-hate relationship. Like Dworkin must have felt for Hart J
And then he leaves all of this – inspired, incidentally, by his mistress – to go to China on a diplomatic mission. He comes back, to forget all his other work in the writing of 27 volumes on everything the Chinese people invented first, did right, or achieved without the West. Not that I want to do that – but inspiration can find its’ way to expression, in work, however impossible that might seem now.
Anyway, I, for one, hope so. 

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

5 Things That Security-Freak Me Would Like To See


1. Small-to-medium-size boxes, with number locks, allowing you to store things anywhere, anytime. Especially useful in common mess/refrigerator. Ideally, would also have warning posters all over, and maybe a hidden camera. Or atleast the fake red blinking light which looks like a hidden camera.
2. Biometric locks for cars. You will never lock your keys inside again. You cannot loose your keys. Most importantly, no going back to the house to get the keys that you forgot. (But also – atleast as of now – you will forgo your bluetooth-unlocking facility)
3. Doors with automatic locks on them. You know, like the car which automatically clicks shut, or the password-protected document which automatically logs out after a set time. But then, this increases the possibility of locking your keys inside…if you haven’t followed point:2. So, I would settle for a door with one of those irritating Voices, reminding/warning you to lock the door, like the Voice which tells you to put on your seatbelt, or that stupid road-map-guide-thing.
4. Sonic fences, like what a bat uses to find its way in the dark, or a dolphin uses to communicate in deep sea. Each person has distinguishing characteristics which could be programmed into the software: so you could pass into your house without noticing anything; but your friend might get a particularly unpleasant shock (!).
5. And this last one is particularly close to my hear right now: an embedded GPS transmitter on each and every thing you own, so “accio (say) purse” can actually become a reality.

Straightforward, but solutions which haven't quite "tipped" as yet...

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

127 Hours In My Life


I suppose there is a certain ironic twist to the fact, that I loose my purse – my indispensible, hold-all, with safety money, et al., the characteristic brown wallet which I have carried with me since first year, the first time I really had money of my own – on the very day, in fact, in the very theatre, when I watch the movie 127 hours.
Not that I am, even remotely, suggesting that my endurance of a loss of purse is comparale in any way to actually cutting off my hand. I would not care to belittle the movie in such a crass manner. But just that, it seems to be an instantaneous challenge to put in practice all those lessons that the movie seeks to teach.
For one, you have already been stupid. Point established. But the movie is really interested in, what next??? How do you deal with it, live with it. I cannot live without my precious purse – or so I feel, right now. But I had to deal with it: I had to block my cards, and do what-not, like tell my parents. And I am even putting up with mosquitoes now…
And most importantly, I had to report it on this blog. Not the same as a movie on a video cam, but similar. This is something resembling my attempt to not cut the rest of the world off, as it is so simple and straightforward to do.
Perhaps what I am really trying to say here is, the movie kinda puts my loss in perspective. But that is not going to be any where near enough to get my feet back on the ground.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Slow Down!!!


WARninG: Probably a really crappy post, about all my doubts and insecurities, so I will understand perfectly if you guys skip this one. But its’ better to have these thoughts down here, in the blog, rather than roaming around in my head and ruining all my [few] attempts to study tax.
First off, I set up this blog for one thing, but I have gotten something else from it, altogether. I wanted to see for myself, if I could keep up with the rigour and discipline of regular posts…and apart from two [big] breaks in-between, I think I managed to make time for it, et al. More important, I found that I could actually think of things to say, and write, and communicate, hopefully without completely boring you all.
The subject of this blog, obviously, is not about what I did today, or what dishes I have tried to cook (aka Julie & Julia!), the news of the day, or even exclusively the books I am reading. I wanted to pick one and all of these, arbitrarily, to hold them up to “the cold light of scrutiny”. (Don’t ask me who said that, but its’ a really nice quote; my regards to whomsoever did say it…)
I always, always, have wanted to be able to add that little something to ordinary discussions. For instance, it makes no sense, to me, to say for example, that the GDP of a country is phenomenally high, if you don’t also add that 20% of people hold 80% of wealth. Or vice versa.
And it certainly is no fun, to say that GDP is xxxx billion dollars, but to not use the word “phenomenal”…I bet no one has ever used those words in the same sentence before! :-P
But the one thing I’ve learnt since beginning this blog, is that, that “little something” remains extremely, irrelevantly negligible, if you just keep looking for new “somethings”. My Oxford essay talks about a big potential breakthrough in some theoretical models, because finally, theorists are moving away from a “frenzied race to maximize utility”, and accepting that perfection is impossible in a social science, and imperfection is an acceptable compromise. Oddly, that essay has as much to teach me, as it has, to convey to the rest of the world.
Does this mean my post frequency will come down??? I hope not. Because what I do receive from this blog, is the perfect opportunity to vent all these stupid thoughts, on my hapless, captive (*really sweet smile*) audience. Leaving me free to study for my tax exam.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Bibliophilia: II

I am not even going to attempt to explain my absence. It was inexcusable, but I just couldn’t drag myself to the front of the computer. But I have been reading, instead…and really good books. Anything to keep away from application work!
For one, I read Terry Prachett again, and was disappointed, yet again. As you might remember, I said he was a little erratic – turns out, he only shows isolated flashes of brilliance. The more I read, the more I am let down. I read this book called Pyramids, got through nearly three-quarters of it, seeing as it kept holding out the promise of better reading ahead. Just a thought to the content which was so intriguing…
First, it continues on Prachett’s fictional creation, Discworld. This is a great way to explore what our world could be, if things were just a little different. For instance, theives and assassins are coherently unionized, working in perfect harmony. Something like Godfather, but with a sense of humour as well as honour.
In this book, a frustrated Prince of an undeveloped, insular, desert kingdom, goes out into the urban metropolis, joining the elite assassins. His dad dies, on the eve of graduation…the book follows the newly-crowned assassin-King. When no one in the bureacracy listens, the new King initiates his own system of rescuing condemned prisoners, using the skills of an assassin. Full marks for plot.
But then he ruins it, with math and physics and accounts. The King appoints pyramid builders to build the largest pyramid in history, but the building requires “quantum” calculations to meet deadlines. This backfires, ending with the kingdom itself disappearing into a “crack” in a rock.
Why??? How does this contribute to the plot??? Existential questions of being a microscopic part of a macroscopic world demand a full, separate book. They have nothing to do with mutiny-in-Yes-Minister. The cherry on the cake is, the conversations of the pyramid builders are the funniest, most innovative part of the book.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Bibliophilia - I

I hope to regularly review the books I’m reading in this blog. Of course, that presupposes that I am actually regularly reading something worth commenting on. The reading habit I had in school, has experienced a prolonged Near Death Experience, and it is still touch-and-go…

Anyway, I’m halfway through around 4 different books right now. Reading multiple books simultaneously is another habit I’ve picked up in the last two-three years. It usually means I don’t finish reading much, and I usually can’t figure out which one to read, so I watch TV instead!

The combination I’m reading is pretty great, however. Ernst Hemmingway, The Sun Also Rises, is supposed to have a “terse” writing style, which has “done much for English prose”. It chronicles the lives of the expat community in Paris, don’t remember the time period. It actually has quite a great effect: for instance, there is this one place where the guy is walking back home fast, eager to go to sleep – he sees someone waving at him, but is too much in a hurry to notice who it is – and then, as he nears his flat, he admires a statute. He reads the inscription, but again, doesn’t bother to remember the exact words. And then, he is speaking of how every room in Paris, probably the world, is furnished the same way…

Then I’m reading The Reluctant Fundamentalist. This applies what I like to call the Indo-Pak style of English writing. It is the sort of roll-in-the-back-of-your-throat, meandering style – it takes you from the gullys of Karachi to the skyscrapers of New York, all in the same amused, almost snobby (but not quite), tone. So while the first book is terse, this book is all about long sentences, and rather gentle comparisons. The comparisons, paradoxes, and all other devices of the English language are stark and in-your-face in the first one.

Lastly, I’m reading Shashi Tharoor, India: From Midnight to Millenium. I had read his The Great Indian Novel before, or atleast attempted to do so. It was fantastically written, but at some level, the analogies he was drawing were escaping me. I knew that such-and-such character resembles a certain person in India’s freedom struggle; I knew that such-and-such situation is supposed to be funny – but I didn’t know why. So I’m trying out this book instead.

I’ve not got very far with this book, but the first page was enough to give me some hope! He speaks of an article he wrote when he was nineteen – he actually reproduces three paragraphs – and criticizes the “love for big words” and “over-developed vocabulary”. Sounds like someone you know?

Dusshera

Saraswati Puja is one of the most symbolic Hindu festivals. Which is saying something, because Hinduism is steeped in symbolism.

The whole process of putting chandanam-kumkum on everything in the house – a pretty thankless task which always gets dumped on me – is like an enumeration of the things which matter to you. For theists, it gives god a clear mandate of what to protect. For atheists, it reminds you of what matters to you.

And then, for one full day, you aren’t supposed to touch your work. Socially, that has always been one of the best ways to ensure the health and adequate resting of labour forces. For example, Sabbath. But this, once-in-a-year hands-off rule is a little different. It is an insidious, sleight-of-hand method of making a new years’ resolution, without having to contend with the party-hangover the next day. It literally gives you the permission to turn a new leaf.

You can tell yourself, I might have flunked every single exam in the past year, or maybe even the past 10 or 15 years; but I pray to God today and I can do something different from tomorrow. The one-day no-work rule lets this idea kind of seep into your brain, and breaks the habit of flunking. It is a scientific fact that this is the best method of breaking a habit.

(The psychologist WILLIAM JONES said Accumulate all the possible circumstances which shall reinforce the right motives; put yourself assiduously in conditions that encourage the new way; make engagements incompatible with the old; take a public pledge, if the case allows; in short, envelop your resolution with every aid you know.http://www.des.emory.edu/mfp/tt8.html)

Someone once told me that this is a stupid practice. “Ayudha” in ayudha puja means weapons – conventionally, prayers were limited to weaponry. Not to the fridges and electrical switches, TVs, books, tennis racquets (!)… let alone cars and cycles. But I think this expansive definition is a good thing. It means that we are moving with the times.

Plus, I like the idea that the Pen can now be mightier than the Sword!!!!

The Profound, the profane, and the personal

This is a long overdue post – I planned this around the beginning of this month, but went into recharge-mode (read: hibernation) as soon as I got home. But I’m back now, and all’s well with the world again. Yay.

Basically, this post is about three things I (had, back then) wanted to vent about. Which one is which, profound, profane or personal, is for you to figure out. In fact, its’ probably going to tell you something about your character, your approach to life – I would love to compare your reactions - but I’m too lazy to psychoanalyze them right now, at 3 AM (again!).

This is also a reeely long post. In my defense, it is basically three posts in one.

Firstly, I’m really glad someone (in my opinion, J.S.MILL!!!! But no need to go into my own issues reg. him, for the sake of non-law readers J) once upon a time decided to bestow all of us with rights. Seriously. The idea that there are some things which are out-of-bounds for me, which, no matter how irritating a person gets, and he/she cannot be deprived of these rights. Because, really, I don’t want to have the responsibility of depriving you of your rights, though I’m not too far from actually doing so.

That was probably a little confusing. What I mean to say is, there are times when I am *this close* to losing my patience with people – slapping sense into them, or shaking them up HARD. In other words, if you are going to frisk me in public, and make me turn out my pockets, (if you had not had rights) I would have certainly done serious damage to you.

Of course, this is a logical fallacy, because if they didn’t have rights, then I should have no moral issue with depriving them of the same. But I doubt if I would ever want to carry with me the responsibility of slapping someone. So, I’m glad they have rights, and I have a legitimate reason to not carry through with my instincts. To just sit back, and hope they eventually spontaneously-combust under the weight of their ignorance.

Now, we come to my second point. There are times when people make you feel sooo small, probably when they are itching to deprive you of your rights. (Yes, that does occasionally happen, even to me!) And this resolves the other great debate – Cats v. Dogs.

Why? Because the Dog is the one you would turn to, when you are feeling so small. It doesn’t matter that you’ve been a complete fool, that you’ve loused-up an important meeting/presentation/whatever; its’ still going to lick you and make you feel better. Cats are just not that altruistic. For the mere moral superiority of the actions of the dog, its worth loving and emulating. Therefore, in my book, being called a “dog” is not disparaging at all.

On the other hand, I know for a fact that much of the conventional stereotype o cats as cold and aloof is not fully substantiated in reality. If an animal finds its way up four floors, and selects the one specific room out of 25 on the floor, mews outside till the person opens up, all at 4 AM…that kind of changes forever your perception of that animal.

Nevertheless, if a ferocious mother-cat can scare the daylights out of a cowardly dog, then anything is possible in this world.

Finally, I painted my room!!!! I first painted the door, and laid the pain on waaay too thick. But that was a good thing, because I still have loads of extra paint, and the door now shines like a mirror. It’s a nice red – probably deep pink, but then I’m colour blind. No more gagging-yellow!!!!

Then, I didn’t manage to clean the brush properly, so when I attempted the wardrobe doors (also had been painted in the yellow, so…) the brush was all stiff and pretty nearly useless. No matter. We are a fearless and careless lot. I went right ahead and scooped the paint onto the door, the best I could.

One door now has a nice air-brushed look to it. The other one came out a bit thicker, almost globb-ier. I don’t yet fully know how they’ve turned out, after they’ve dried. But worst case, I’ll paint over it, or take the turpentine to it.

Monday, September 27, 2010

A vision to carry with you.

I don't know why, but I'm always at my most productive in philosophizing (and, consequently, on the blog) when I have deadlines sitting on my head. Maybe its' my version of procrastination. Whatever.

I was thinking: each of us has our own way of depicting the way we view our world. There is a certain picture which we can always visualize, about each and every interaction we have: almost an undercurrent of cartoony figures living in a parallel universe. I don't think I'd be adequately able to draw an analogy for the whole of my life...I don't think anyone would be able to do that, and that would kinda defeat the purpose, right?

But I can draw one simple analogy - whenever I take up something new, attempt something when I don't quite know how it will work out in the end. Earlier, I used to see this as a fishing expedition; I cast bread in the water, and wait with my fishing-line, ready to reel in the fish which bites. But then, I recently realized that this is a depressing analogy. I mean, fish don't always bite, do they? I suspect all of us entertain an inner fear along these lines - to be unable to come back with fish after our much-touted expeditions.

So, now I'm trying to visualize a new analogy. One really interesting option before me is something I picked up from the Terry Prachett book, Mort. (Btw, Prachett is an absolute must-read!!! Mind-blowing!!!) The analogy is based on this parody of Tibetan philosophy, of a Llama sect which calls itself the "Listeners". They believe energy is never destructed - so the repercussions/remnants of the original energy, responsible for creating the World, must still be in existence. So, if you can find and identify the original energy, you then know the secret to creation.

So, my formulation goes something like this: if energy is never destructed, then if I am thinking on the right frequency, the energy I thereby create cannot be destructed. So, the energy must materialize in the way I want it to, without being affected by any obstacles. My process of attempting something new is nothing but an attempt to find and identify and actually reach the right frequency of thought.

A much more hopeful option, don't you think??? But I'm still open to suggestions on a different visualization!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

the source and travails of genius

So, to continue from the previous post - there is something undeniably, intuitively appealing about "pure" genius. As I mentioned earlier, genius can be the great tool for mass emancipation, or it can be the enigmatic tool for class suppression. But what is this notion of genius?
I am seeking to follow singular moments of geniousness - the eureka moments - back to their roots. Its really more of a continuous process, because I've been thinking about this for some time, but still....
Its' very easy to slog for an exam, or mug answers, and then get some apparent success. Case in point, it really gets my goat when some hot-shot asks a standard question in class - for instance, why a certain assumption was made, or why someone would support a certain policy, or when someone gives a really lame counterfactual - I mean, these are certainly important questions to answer, and really fiurther the discussion of the class et al...but its like, you saw someone asking it in some class, and realized the teacher really liked the question...so you parrot the question in every other class you go into. (And the teachers still appreciate the questions, though they must've heard it a million times - not something I'll ever understand.)
But this is clearly not what we mean by genius. Genius is, therefore, in my definition, what hits you when you're not trying too hard. It has to be almost natural, flowing from a fact situation or problem or debate (in this, Ayn Rand lovers would probably agree with me); but it should be distinguishable in that it is the unique interpretation or spin which only the originator of genius can contribute. I mean, it need not be that no one else in the history of this universe has ever come up with that thought; but even if it is concurrent discovery, the independence of thought must still be perceivable.
And lastly, a point which most people forget: practicality. Abstract genius is something which only goes to show that the genius isn't good enough to find a practical manifestation for itself. Abstraction to the point of futility is not evidence of scholarly attainment, but of sub-standard thought. (Of course, in my defense, what amounts to futility is a flexible definition. If the futility is combined with hope for eventual practical manifestation, then it might not be futile anymore.)
When you follow genius to its source, the eureka moment really consists of de-tangling an inconsistency perceived sub-consciously. If I'm reading a certain book, and this seems to disagree with some other book - genius consists in reconciling the two positions: at the very least, understanding where both come from, so practical conversation between the conflicting positions might be enabled. This is something which anyone can do, and genius, therefore, is not something unsurmountably seperating the Mensa-potential and the Dumb population in the world.
My own pet theory is, given the layers and layers of psychosis which each of uys carry around with us, the only substantive difference between the Mensa-potential and the Dumb, is the fact that the Dumb don't actually want to be smart. Or their perception of what is smartness, or what they want from their lives, is different; so they don't try hard enough.
Superficially, this seems an extremely snobby, elitist theory. But just give it a shot - watch the Dumb people (we all know tre types I'm talking about), and their reactions and thought processes. They would rather just fit in, or rather give out the standard question/answer for assured social acceptance of the same. This is what actually happens around you.
And then try to work, in the privacy of your room, perhaps in the middle of the night, or the crack of dawn. When you are working for yourself, and not for anyone else. And you'll find that thinking smart, thinking genius, is not that difficult after all. I don't, of course, refer to things like vocab or formulae, which need months to be absorbed into the brain - just try disentangling a conundrum of any sort. A mental challenge.
I am actually thinking that doing one GRE practice test a day is really stimulating, and even fun: maybe I should stick with it even after the exam tomorrow. Such atypial activity help your brain remain active - I think it has something to with exercising unused meural pathways.
But the downside of this philosophy is, its a heavy obligation to carry individually. Your mind doesn't mind working for long hours everyday, but your body definitely protests. You might have a brilliant idea in the middle of the night - but your body DOES NOT want to get out of bed, cut into sleeping-time, and follow up each and every idea you have.
Finally, we are left with the age-old question of just how much pace you can sustain in your life. Is it worth it to you to spend every waking moment, and then some, in the furtherence of some chosen cause? Or, like me, do you want a little bit of everything? Can you juggle a personal life and a challenging career, and make time for genius as well? Better still, can you integrate all of this into one stunning mosaic????
Make no mistake, genius is exhausting and demanding. But it is fun, and is well worth the effort.
Knowing its worth the effort, for some reason, is not sufficient incentive for me to take up and make good all the diversity and experimentation I had planned for this blog. So, you are stuck with my philospohizing, atleast for the time being.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

imperialism

I’ve been watching the BBC documentry, Story of India, and I’m feeling...well, I guess “imperialistic” would be the right word. Like everything in the world will work out if you can just get the right formula, and twiddle a few knobs here and there. And to be the person behind those knobs...well , that’s the dream.
Like, the minute the documentary shows a ramshackle, 150-year-old house in Patna, the capital of Chandragupta Maurya’s empire – I’m immediately thinking, what kind of insurances can we provide to these people if the thing collapses? Even better, how can we interest architects to take up their reconstruction while creatively preserving them at the same time? How do we finance and capacitate such a project, without driving the whole country into financial ruin? And most important, can we get any other positive externality out of this exercise? I believe that if you look hard enough, there has to be an answer to every question; no matter how impossible it might seem at first.
However, large-scale strategic planning is something which, I’ve found, exceeds the brain capacity most people. (Not to crib), but to tell me that you can “see the overlapping interests” but not the “existence of resulting synergy” is just not a good enough answer. It is our job to make synergy possible – it is never pre-existing, whereas interests are – and we need to be the bridge between interests and synergy. What we should be evaluating is not security of investment; but potential of growth and impact.
On the same line of thought, the documentary poses another alluring picture: “How often we make our history the story of great conquerors...But here’s one man, who sits under a tree, thinking.” And changes the world – the Buddha. Its’ alluring on two or three levels, actually, and you can pick the answer you like. First, the standard answer, is the power of thought. How intellectual rather than physical superiority is utilitarian to society, non-violent. Or you could accept my “critical studies” version, which I think is its’ implicit corollary: the intellectual dominance of one man, and the sway he gains over the masses, all without getting up from his seat beneath a tree.
The second aspect of allure is the more “egalitarian” answer. One man doesn’t need resources of any kind, over and above the inherent capacity of his brain, and a little bit of guts to give up other material comforts. So, the critical, class-based, subjugationist and cynical answer is somewhat negated by this one. (An interesting fact, the whole of the intellectual property protection regime today is inspired by this very idea.)
And the last answer, my favourite. You don’t have to move an inch to control the world – this is imperialism for the lazy! :-) no offence meant, though...I genuinely think this is the toughest, and most productive method of changing the world, After all, I've practiced it all my life!!!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

How you know you are making a life change.

I can't actually claim to have compeletely turned my life around yet, and really, I feel no need for this post. But, as this blog is supposed to chronicle {n., a detailed narrative record or report, yes, I'm working on GRE :-D} the development towards a life change, it is almost obligatory to put something down my achievements in the last week or so. Of course, this list is not to be taken as final and conclusive; but it is probably the kind of mid-way marker which is practically usable.
So, here goes, in no particular order:
1. You are able to joke with people you are furious with, and/or dislike; your turn-around times for poker faces is gradually but surely tending to zero.
2. You ab-so-lu-te-ly detest, and disown, your earlier written/other work - even something as simple as an e-mail.
3. You spend the whole day running around, and then wonder vaguely why you feel like you deserve a treat.
4. You start productive procrastination: by this, I mean that the need to procrastinate a certain undesireable job is no longer a paralysing force, and you are able to fit other things into your schedule. Basically, you get a life. Ref: www.structuredprocrastination.com
4a. Corrolary, the items on the top of your structured procrastination list have a greater chance of seeing the light of day. (By definition, of course, this rate can never be 100%. But an improvement nevertheless.)
5. You find yourself thinking that maybe, just maybe, you'll find somethng to do in your life which you actually enjoy.
6. And this last one is more in the nature of a general indicator of living a great life: your life goal and purpose become too important (and fun), for you to sweat the small stuff, the technicalities of how you'll reach there.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

first attempt in a long time...3 AM really works for me!!!

I’m ephemeral; but permanent, A moving target,
Who am I?
I’m both torturous and tortuous,
But I’m good for you, you know.
I’m not so much a chameleon,
As I am omniscient.
You could be everywhere, see everything,
I ask only for your sanity.
I bring along unpredictable chaos,
But also umitigated fun.
Take my gamble, call my bluff,
Meet my challenge.I assure you it will be worth it.

But yes, you only have my word for it.

The post I wanted to make.

But I din't have the words to express it: http://www.ayes2009.com/

Though I don't really like some of the art he's mentioned - I mean, is that all you can do, the absolute limit of your artistic capabilities? - is is why I want to start sketching, et al. Not that that's making any progress.

Take a chance on me....

I right now only have access to ABBA songs: and take a chance on me is my all-time favourite. There's something about those lyrics...If you change your mind, then I'm the first in line... meaning I'll hang around even when you are being bludy obtuse. If you've got no place to go, I'll put my life on hold, to be there for you.

I know that this is not an emotion usually associated with me - even I don't associate myself with it. But it has to be said, there is something brave in the whole concept. It doesn't sound brave, or even sane, if you think of it rationally...but it still feels like that.

It's messed-up, a recepie for disaster. I doub't if I'd ever be in that situation, and if I am, I certainly will not react that way. But don't we all just love the idea of being the self-sacrificing scapegoat.

On the other hand, maybe I just like the idea of being able to prove my worth even if the odds are stacked against me - but that's not actually going to happen by sitting around and waiting. So why do I like this song???

I'll leave you with another poem I came across, by Walt Whitman: it is equally romanticist, or idealist, but positive in tone. I'll deconstruct it some other time.
http://www.princeton.edu/~batke/logr/log_026.html